Happy Birthday Im Yoon A!
Hope that life hasn’t been hard on you. :)
I read books. I draw, write fan fiction, and spazz. I love food. I love music. I make mistakes, laugh at those mistakes, and I do something about them.
Taeyeon sheds a tear while performing ITNW due to not feeling well but still continued performing. [x]
I so remember this. Hang in there, Taeng.
(via powerofnine)
Rantrantrant!
Amp.
Okay, literally I’m shedding tears and it’s clearly because I’m not feeling okay right now. I hate the thought of not being to enjoy doing something, because you’re afraid that it wouldn’t be worth doing. And yes, right now, these are the things I wanted to do, but I’m too hesitant to do so:
—looking for another job
—that effing personal statement for postgrad application (i need tons and TONS of inspiration to write this one, turns out my draft is completely unorganized!)
—meeting new people (I can just imagine myself growing into an old maid who would be taking care of the house. It’s hard when you’re the one who have to stand up for and take care of siblings and a cousin in the house when the parents are out of town. They’re too grown up for goodness’ sake.)
—hobbies (i also need inspiration for this. where did my creative juices go??)
When an idea pops up it’s instantly swallowed up by all my hesitations. AND PEOPLE THOUGHT I WAS ALWAYS THAT BRAVE.
I’m not supposed to say this and I know most people would hate being mushy and all but I miss my good friends. I hang out with people in the house and it’s sad that at the end of the day, I wish I would have done something more. It’s frustrating tbh. Everything is completely frustrating and I don’t know why this is happening to me.
I hope that something will enlighten me and fish me out of the dark that I’m in right now.
